Aguadilla day 1

Got here yesterday, arrive on the town of Aguadilla, did some driving around to see what to do. The first thing I notice here its the beach life atmosphere.
I can smell it and feel it in the air, people is friendly food its great and the beaches are amazing. At night. I went to crash boat beach and walk on the pier witch was an old US navy or Air Force refueling station. Sat there and. Listen to the ocean and look at a beautiful dark sky, you can see the other owns on the distance across the bay, was very relaxing.
Today I decided to go snorkeling, so I stop on a local surf shop called “Verde Azul” the staff was amazing very knowledgeable and friendly, I buy a snorkeling kit, which included the mask, snorkel and fins for 60 dollars and they told me where to go, have also an apartment to rent a nice surfboard on Monday. For 100 dollars. For 4 days, I am exited to for that.
After getting the gear I drove down the beach its a nice road, with many green pants and on the way I got a few mangos from a tree next to the street. Got my gear on and headed to the beautiful water did a couple hours of snorkeling then like 1 hour of body surfing. Being in such a beautiful and peaceful place enjoying nature and being in it, make me wanna just quit my job and al and move down here this is the lifestyle I love what I I miss what’s been missing on my life, stress. What stress, depressions and anxiety what is that,

Thoughts while on my flight


This week I decided to go visit Puerto Rico, took off and have a layover in CLT North Carolina. For some reason my drink of predilection while flying its Ginger Ale, I get in my flight , window sit always, many people argue that the aisle its better but personally I prefer the window, my reasons are simple, first you cant beat the view and second if I feel sleepy I can rest my head on the airplane wall and get some head support . I’m actually writing on the first leg of my flight.

While looking through the window I see green circles on an arid landscape, those are the central pivot irrigation systems, hearing the engines roaring, looking to what I like to believe is a small part of the curvature of this beautiful world. I’m exited and anxious at the same time, I have some plans for this trip, visit “El Yunque” a national rain forest hike thru it see the beautiful waterfalls and nature, then will head west of the island, stopping in Camuy to visit an underground river of Camuy caves, after that will spend the rest of my week of the town of Aguadilla. My plans in this town are simple, eat go surfing at wilderness beach and surfers beach also will go Kayaking and snorkeling, my only regret is that I do not have a waterproof camera, also will spend time at Crash boat beach, of what I hear the water have a lot of visibility and the sand its golden, plus get some local cuisine, and tropical fruits. These are my plans but most of the times I freestyle my trips. Will be writing more and posting picture as ill enjoy this mini vacation,.

Picture taken right now, and uploaded this post thru inflight wifi

Inspiring place

Beauty comes in different ways, luscious green mountains with rivers and water falls, golden sand in tropical beaches, trees cover with snow, all of them have an appeal, something that makes us happy to be alive. But, what about the desert? I didn’t think so, that was until I experience this wonderful landscape personally. Many friends told me about Sedona and how amazing it is, so I decided to see it myself. Driving in, I noticed open spaces as far as the eye can see, the red landscape contrast with the blue sky, like a post card come to live, but my real amazement was the way it make me feel, for some reason I cant explain, I felt tranquility, while drinking a cup of coffee, and admiring the scenery from my chair, I realized that beauty comes in many different ways, and I saw and taste that there is much beauty to be seen in the desert.

Earths beauty

Needing a break, I flew to Oregon to hike the Wahkeena falls. There I was experiencing relaxation through all my senses, feeling the moist air touching my skin and breathing it with it’s wonderful scent, looking at the water cascading through the rocks and hearing the wind whistling thru the pine trees. Nature have a way to humbling us, looking at this water falls, I felt inner peace, and satisfaction. Next day while flying back, I look thru the airplane window and witness a beautiful sunset, the perfect ending for my hiking escapade.
“Picture was taken 20 minutes after takeoff from Oregon “



Procrastination, its a real problem for many people. I got many things to do, but I postpone them so I can do things I don’t need to do.

I’ve been telling my self all week that I need to clean the yard, wash the car, and go out for a hike. Then Saturday morning comes, I wake up, drink a cup of coffee, look thru the kitchen door and say “I’ll do it later “ that’s a dangerous word or attitude if you will, I actually talk my self out of doing the chores that I planned to do all week. Then I sit down on my lazy chair, grab a book and before I even notice the day it’s over. This scenario is way to familiar.

Procrastination it’s a poison a thief of time, stealing the best days of our life’s, can cause stress, missed opportunities and self depreciation.

What I did to overcome this dangerous habit? First I started by acknowledging my problem, then think of ways I can improve this bad behavior. Instead of doing the big projects, I started in smaller ones and complete them, make a list of things I have to do, yes I wrote them on a piece of paper, the day before I repeat to my self “tomorrow you have things to do”, then when Saturday came, I woke up drink my cup of coffee, but this time I walk out of the door and started working on the things I have to do. It takes will power because procrastinating it’s a habit, and we need to break from it, if we don’t the years will go by, and we will have nothing to show, we will be empty handed. That’s a high price to pay just for procrastinating.

The day my life changed.

I always been a person that loves adventure, from my younger years I was always exploring, camping and climbing mountains. When I turn 18 I started to travel, first locally, then I venture to more exotic places, all the time I got out without any concrete plans, just took my back pack, put on some jeans, white t-shirts, laptop and some personal items, buy a plane ticket and took off to any destination, once I was there I figure out what to do and where to stay. I fly planes, live on a sailboat for 6 years, parachute and surf as much as I cloud. One day I was bored, and decide to move to Cebu in the Philippines, live there for a year, and then after, I move back to the states, got a job and start all over again. I mention this things to establish that I was fearless, I was never afraid, and did many risky things. One morning of April 2015, on a Thursday, I woke up, and I couldn’t breath, I was choking and there was no one to help me, I was terrified, the only thing on my mind was, I’m gonna die here today, when I was about to pass out, on a desperate measure, I closed my fist and pound on my chest with all my strength, after 2 times  doing that, whatever was obstructing my my throat clear up, and I started to breath. I was shaking, so afraid, so, I drink a glass of water then  headed to work, I didn’t think much of it, other than it was a close encounter with death. A few days later, I was watching Tv, and all the sudden I felt like I was having a heart attack, I rushed to the hospital, nothing was wrong with me, all the test came out great, but in my head, all I was thinking was that they miss something, 2 days later the same thing happened again, I rush to the hospital, got the same results, everything was ok. Weeks pass by, and I was feeling worst, but I also noticed, I was  scared, afraid for no real reason. if I have to drive far, I started to feel like I couldn’t breathe, and an overwhelming feeling of doom took over me. I didn’t know what to do, the doctors told me everything was fine, but there I was having the worst feelings of my life, no one believe me, everybody assume that I was making it up, but the feelings were real, a true fiscal illness, that for some reason no one believe i have, not even the doctors could find it. Two years already since that incident, and until now, I can’t travel far with out feeling afraid, I don’t wanna go out all, all I want to do is stay home, but I force myself to do the things I have to do. I’m living thru an ordeal, it’s worst than a nightmare, I am not the same person I was, from being fearless to be afraid of even driving, all this just because that traumatic event. I tried  to take it out of my thoughts, but it always stay lingering inside me, like a red light or a barricade that won’t let me cross, to be the same adventurous guy that I was before. I’ve been suffering according to professionals of chronic anxiety. I was offer medications to ease the bad feelings, but after reading the side effects I choose not to take them. What’s been helping me a lot is doing meditation every night before bed, drinking tea, chamomile, passion fruit and other teas with out stimulant. I feel better, have less anxiety attacks, but my life still trap in fear. I learn to overcome this adversity with my mind, sometimes when I’m to tired from work, I loose control and it take over again. I trained my self, so when I start feeling the symptoms, I just relax my mind and let it pass. Now instead of living for adventure, I live to control this horrible feelings, and force myself to do things that my mind “ fight or fly” feeling won’t let me do. Anxiety change my life. that day that I almost die change me.

Im not a writer or blogger so I apologize if my posts are not great. I started this as a way to curve my feelings.


Conversation with a stranger

IMG_0025While walking around the city of Butuan on the Philippines, I saw a plaza with a big church in front of it, and many food stands in the  sorrounding area, i order a “baboy Bbq” which is pork on a stick and sat down to eat it,  while I was enjoying the food a nice young man sit next to me and started talking, he was a homosexual and just came from church, during the conversation he express that even though he is “gay” he is against same sex marriage, I ask him why he was against it, his answer was that the Bible doesn’t allowed marriage between a man and a man that the Bible states that marriage is between a man and a woman, I was a bit surprised by his answer, so I told him that it’s very honorable that he believes in the Bible, and I ask if he was a religious person, which he replied, yes, I go to mass every week, so I told him, if you believe in the Bible, why do you live as a homosexual? according to the Bible homosexuality is wrong, so why do you choose to follow the part about marriage but neglect the part  about being homosexual? He look at me, stay quiet and after a minute, ask me if I was religious, I told him I’m not, but I raise the question out of curiosity, because he professed to believe and follow the Bible but omitted a few things the Bible disapproves of . The young man smile and told me that I was right about that, and we changed the subject and have a nice conversation about Butuan and it’s lovely people.  But that issue stayed in my head and I wonder, can a person be a “Christian ” even though they practice things that the Bible condemns.  it seams that many religions and people condemn others and don’t look at themselves.